So really..?

What do I do now. I obviously wasted my time, lost someone important over this fucking mess. Just watch when I get things back together, someone is going to come ruin it all over again. Fuck this. I hate this bullshit. I need to rant, but not to someone who can't do anything about it or tell me the dude is a douche bag. Cool. I got set up. I love that feeling. It's fucking great. Maybe one day I'll regret posting this. Maybe someone can show me their true colors cos really thats all i've done the whole ride through this mess. Someone needs to help me, because I am about to fucking lose it. Completely.

Goodbye.

There is this guy

that i'm totally-

       and completely

head over heals with.

       of course i'm alone in the situation.

I've been cleaning a lot latley:

Vaccuming the Living Room every 2 days.

Randomly starting to make my bed now..?(Thats really odd.)

Actually FOLDING & PUTTING AWAY my clothes. (This is eve weirder.)

Probably going to paint my rom tomorrow.. FINALLY. (I never cared to before)

[Going to find out if  DIY projects are really worth it........]

My nightstand is CLEAN... WTF?!

My clothes make it to my dirty clothes hamper..?

My disorganized closet is making me want to throw everything out and start over.